U?? Nah~~ God?? YEAH!!!!!!!!!

suddenly another thing pop into my life...is it just my feelings?or is it u r really flirting with me?? @@
seriously i dunno wat had got into u... scary fella...luckily i'm no longer there......*relieve* but to whom shall i share this thing with?? 'him'?? NAH!!~~ he will no longer know anything that happen in my life!!

my grandpa is getting better already but is causing a freat enormous hEADACHE and chaos!!!! oh no~ i'm complaining.....

i lost my temper already today.. my patience had reached its limit... i can't take it anymore! my whole inner-self feel like bursting out.. i no longer can stand the stress and i might break down one day if this still continues on.. oh God, pls help me... do hear my cry, pleaseeeeeee~~

hmmm... ESPlosion Camp is here~~ yippie!! can't wait to be there :)
however, all my mind can think now is how will grandma be when i'm nt around for these few days?? hmm..... then, how can i be able to relax myself when i'm in RBR? i really hope i can stabilize my whole self during the camp~ i need to refocus my all onto the Almighty One.. i've gone astray too far and too long.. :( so sorry Lord :'( i didn't mean to do so~ i pray tat my strength will be renewed in You.. and in You alone i put my hope... ><

and now it's time to get my rest~ will post in the details of the ESPlosion camp once i'm back~~~~~~ XD

sLeEp-leSs niGhT~~

last night was a sleepless night...and i felt it's my 1st night sleeping in tears...all of a sudden i felt the pain and sadness of the things that happen...even though i haven't have my own kids, bt i felt how it is if my children act like tat to me...ad if i'm her 'kuli' to take care of her...can't we b grateful of what we have? can we trust totally on wat friends tell us? y dun we trust our parents who knows and gives the best to us? parents are like God who wants to give the best of the best to their children..so y can't u just shut your mouth and listen to them? your friends dun even know u as ypur parents know u!

i pray that God will open your heart to see what is good and what is best..not forgetting that you will learn to put your faith and trust towards Him 100%.. NO DOUBTING that he will take care of every single detail in our life for He is our MOST LOVING Father.. He won't leave us alone..

and i dun wan to cry over this anymore..how u ill treat your old ones, your kid will do the same to u in the future.. so treat your old ones with much love and care...

nEw 'p0sT'??

today, at 12.55pm, a baby gal was born into this world... her parents are my sis and bro-in-law... so i guess u know what does my title of this post means..... i have a niece already at the age of 19... great??? hmm.... am still at my place preparng for the last 2 papers....dunno when i'll go to my sis place yet...mayb after the 2nd last paper?? hmm...

i think i'm emotionless now....dunno wat feeling i'm feeling....hahaha.....i'm typing lots and lots of crap here now....bt the most importantly is i feel happy for them.... =D

weiREd drEAm.,.

i dreamt last night of something that won't happen...how can 'he' come and find me at my college? and the place seting of the event does nt exist in my college.....arrgghhh!!!!! i hate dreams...usually it comes true after a few months i guess....bt how can this happen? there's no see-through wall room in the music department... =S

i slept around 3.50am... we (i and 'he') didn't sms since 4th Nov.... i'll type the story behind the incident in the next post...back to the dream... i dreamt he came to find me in college..that time i'm in the room where the walls are made of glass with a couple more friends.. we were practising something that i can't really remember... he saw me and using his gestures to call me out to talk to me.. i pretend i didn't see him and tried to ignore him because i'm so angry of him.... then he opened the door and came in.. he pulled my hand leading me out to talk in private.. bt i pulled back my hand and we talk there and then... he kinda tried to comfort me of his action previously and dunno talk whatever else...i dun bother to take notice abt it... b4 he could even talk longer, i ask him to get out of the room immediately... he didn't move a single muscle and take no notice of wat i said.. so i push him out and close the door.. ignoring him totally..at the same time my friends looked at me one kind...perplex with the incident...then i woke up from my dream...

i wonder is it another game of my mind when i sleep or it's a sign or something?? hmm....wat ever it is i dun care....it's been like nearly a week i haven't sms him and i dun care abt it anymore... sometimes i feel lonely bt it will soon be over....

sensitive......

had been quite sensitive these days... is it bcoz i depend to much on my emotion?? haiz...
1st time slept in tears bcoz of someone... HATE it!!!! dun act u care if u dun really care la... dun be such a hipocrite... GET OUT from my life.. i dun wan to have u around in my life anymore... u may think i need u BUT i'll prove to u that i still can live without ur presence in my life!

so many things playing in my mind.. am i still the same person as i have been in the past? haven't i learnt anything from the past experience?
y must i put my trust in this things some more and let it take control over me?? i know it is impossible to go to the next level bt mayb i like the attention given... i'm an attention seeker?? hmm..... lots of questions to be answered.....

whatever it is, study first!!! AND not forgetting focus on GOD ALONE!!!!

black sheet......

how i wish the things that happened doesn't happen...
why do u need to cause bruises on my heart? why can't we be normal like others? why must we be so competitive? why must we act as though as we are here to make enemies?
why can't we coorperate with each other? there's only so little of us.. it's not like we are a big group of 50 ppl...!!

so CHILDISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Perhimpunan Kebangsaan Guru SeMalaysia

I had a great time there performing choir...it's another unforgetable experience for all of us to be part of the event and be the 'nucleus' of the whole event...

6 songs sung...
1)Kurik Kundi
2)Dirgahayu Tanah Airku
3)Jalur Gemilang
4)Negaraku
5)1 Malaysia
6)Malaysia Berjaya

first 3 songs been conducted by En Shahril, Negaraku by Pn Nadiah and last 2 songs by Mr Mah.. :)

after the whole event ended, all of us took loads of pics... :)

recording artist.... :$

after 3 to for days of becoming a recording artist of IPG Kampus Ilmu Khas...
we went totally cam-whore...haha....
last monday was our last day of recording...we did recording from 4.30pm to 10.30pm... i think it's the latest we'd stayed in college....haha....
but what is important is the experience gained...i will surely remember the memories we had together... the whole recording crew are the BEST!!!

< The recording crew>

Jia En (photographer), Syafiq, Fifi, Intan, Joanne, Chia Bin, Jackson, Irfan and ME... ;)

                                                               < The Four of Us...>
                                                         Jia En, ME, Chia Bin, Joanne

Really great experience in doin this... :) next time we'll come out with the album....hahaha..... =D

memorable day... 10-10-10

when the day begins..
my brother get ready for his convo...
meet my parents and my brother in the uni almost 12 plus..
took lots of pic..
then it's time to fill the empty grumping stomach...hehe

2.30pm everyone getting ready to head back to their destination...
saying goodbye to my parents... *huggsss*
just a few seconds out from my eyes i started to miss them...
how i wish i could follow them back...

3.10pm reach my apartmen...called my grandma...miss her too *hugss*
watch tv till dozed off... =P

6pm continue watching wat ever show in tv.. till 8.30pm

came in the room...prepare things for tomorrow...
9.40 pm do powerpoint slides for presentation tomorrow...haha...
10.30 done with the slides...

before the day ends..
today is 10-10-10
10 wishes to all
1)LOVE
2)SMILE
3)HEALTH
4)WEALTH
5)SUCCESS
6)BEAUTY
7)LUCK
8)DREAM
9)JOY
10)HAPPINESS

HAPPY 10-10-10  <> =D <>

liFE......

Life is like a drop of water
Every drip fills your life...

Life is like a blooming flower
When your life gets better....

Life is like a roller coaster
When your life gets bumpy...

Life is like a butterfly
At first it isn't perfect
But it'll slowly become one....

Life is like a mountain
At first it's tiring
But when you reach on top
It's worth it...

Life is like you and me
Because it's what we go through every single day...

another day......

hmm...tis morning felt better than yesterday...at least not so nausea.... thought it will be alright...

bt now i feel like puking.....i rub ointment ady...eat med ady....drank warm water....all the things i cud do i did..yet it doesn't fade away.....feeling so uncomfortable...

night time fell like the walls of tears going to fall apart anytime...i dunno y...miss home??miss parents??i dunno...mayb....hmmm......

where's the shoulder i can lean on? i wanna someone to hold me tightly in their arm...i want to know that some one i could always turn to whenever i'm down....anyone i love near me?i wanna hug...i wanna cuddle.... :(

first day of study after raya break...

during the raya break i had great time with my family and friends...
during the break also i had a bad toothache and have nausea feeling after everytime i eat...

yesterday, i did some last minute coursework and managed to complete it before 11pm...

this morning woke up around 7am.. went to take a bath as usual and get prepared to go to college...

the first few hours we were supposed to have instrumental class...the lecturer is so good that he allows us to finish up all the assignments to be passed up today....so we did our assignments for the first few hours anf then we had pengantar pendidikan...so sleepy.....huhu

later we had Bahasa Inggeris Teras where we need to present our coursework to the lecturer...it had been overdue for weeks....and finally we had presented our speech and hopefully the marks is high....

now getting ready for the extra-curricular activity...it's amali time.... :(

nex week goin to be music practical time.....another important exam before getting ready for the final....then bye bye foundation...hello degree...... XD

beginning of hols...

after 10 days in putrajay with almost the same menu which is chicken and cabbage for lunch and dinner, i'm finally happy that everything is over.... :)

assignments dateline on 3rd ady handed in...so left another 5 more to go....woohoo~~~
hopefully it can be done asap....hehe...

having hols for 2 weeks...i wonder what will i be doin besides assignment....

after the long 10 days in putrajaya, now i'm sick :'( flu, cough and sorethroat....huhu..... i dun like this at all....it's been a long time since i fall sick....i dun like being sick... :( i wan to have a healthy body...i dun wan the flu especially.....

1st day in Putrajaya

today is the the 1st day i wake up so early in the morning to go to college... :( most of the time we did nothing but to eat and sleep...seriously can become pigs... hehe...

had the time to online for awhile at 8pm...then wat can i say if the person that u care din tell u wat exactly happen to that person...will u not be worried for the person? can you stop thinking abt that person? wat does that person expect us to know if the person dun tell everything...even didnt reply my msges...so frm now i won't find u anymore.. u're dying or so it won't be my business anymore..dun come and find me either!!

around 9pm we had to go down to have briefing...bt it's nt briefing also...it's attendance taking time...haiz....the 2 guys from my class went missing...how can they do this...they will cause everyone to be in trouble due to their immature action.!!!

now it's time to sleep ady i guess... tomorrow will be waking up early to 'sahur'.... :)

3 weeks hols....

there's nothing much tat i did for the past weeks....the 2nd week of my hols i gave tuition to a child....not bad....i teach and she understand....hehe.....
the weekend before tat i went for my cousin's wedding in seremban...nothing much to talk abt it.... :P
n now the hols is finishing....i dun wan to go back....huhu.....it means time to battle with assignments again..... :( but wat to do....student ma....haiz.....
despite of that, i can't wait to go back to meet friends and go to GEPC........hehehe.... :)

trip to cameron highland...

my mum's school aranged a trip up to cameron highland on last friday ( 29/1/2010) till today ( 31/1/2010)..the school bus reached UPM K11 at 3.35am....OMG!! i wasa sleeping in Kak Emi's room...the journey continued from UPM till Tapah's Rest Area...it's 5.30am when we reached there....we went to clean our self up and take breakfast before goin up 2 cameron...we used the simpang pulai road...the wind was so cool... we went to a few places yesterday...most of it was the strawberry farm...then during the evening, we went to the pasar tani there...bought a pair of hand gloves for myself at the price of RM5 only....so cute...hehe....1st time ate fried ais...hehe...honey comb was delicious...cant stop eating it....lol.... then the night was so cold...nt even a thick blanket, long pants, t-shirt, n a jacket is able to give the warmness....fuh....the tap water was like chilled water...even to boil a small kettle of water took so much longer time.....haiz....jz imagine...bt once got used to the coolness there, when we reached the highway heading towards KL, the weather seems extremely hot...scorching hot....sweating all the way....b4 came down, we went to the waterfall area in Ringlet and took so many pictures...

I reached KL 4 something....tiring trip bt memorable n fun.... :)

hurmmm.......

so tired....got my results today...not bad...got 3.76...haha...hope can do better in this semester.... :)

new year,new things,new resolution.....

Everyone has a new resolution in this new year 2010...in the college learn so many new things....more stress than before....haiz.....but hopefully it will be a wonderful memorable year... :)